addicted

yes. how i met your mother. simply the best tv show ever shown on tv, goood stuff. i used to watch it on tv but now im obsessed with it again and trust me, there are loads of awesome episodes i missed out. almost finished though. im using alot of barney's catchy phrases nowadays, kinda creeping myself out but yeah. story of my life. im kinda supposed to be sleeping right now cause i have to wake up early tmorrow and hit nina's. i think. oh today i've discovered something that will change our lives, but it's kind of a turn off since i cant tell anyone about it. yeah well anyways im getting eyebags again, oh god i hate them. i guess thats what you get when you stay up late for simply no reason -.- im getting more pathetic each and everyday... im gonna go and hmm bye. xx

booyah

WHAT UPPPP, isnt that just over the top? yeah i know. xx

ngehh

i've been so tired and sleepy nowadays, i dont know why. i'm getting even more lazy as each day passes by. man, it's almost august already. time flies by so quick. i've been watching all of grey's anatomy episodes, yeapp finished them all. it's soo touching. now i'm stuck to how i met your mother, awesome stuff. i love barney stinson's catchy phrases. i'm gonna start drawing again i think and writing. i miss writing. i dont write like i used to. sigh, bye xx

trust and promises

you know what, i'm going to risk it. i'm going to trust you and remember our promise. if i regret this one day, i'm going to blame nobody but me. i love you, it's not my fault. even you know this friendship will go nowhere. but like you said,
let fate decide our future. xx

headache

my head feels like it's going to explode any second from now. oh god. it hurts like crazy. i've eaten the pills already but the pain just doesn't go away. oh fuck it. xx

strange

i still can't seem to recognize my own feelings. is it hate, love, or jealousy? it's all mixed up. sometimes it all happens at once especially when i'm with him, i hate that i love him and i'm jealous that he has someone that's falling for him deeper and deeper as days passes by.

odd isnt it? well, i'm gonna go and get ready. going to nina's. bye xx

smell of bluberries in the morning

I miss always smelling your perfume on my clothes every time we go out, it's like the smell of sweet blueberries in the morning. you were always there but i guess it was just time to go. I still haven't forgave you for leaving me hanging. it still hurts.

then it all just went all blurr

since i've been always been on the laptop in the dark, when i look at something for a long time it goes all blur and hazy. im gonna need to check my eyes in Malaysia. i look smart as hell with glasses, and trust me i've seen myself with glasses.

09 so far and mean facebook quizzes

dude, my '09 so far sucks. yeah, that was a great intro. but yeah, it's just haven't been my year. well 2008 was definitely not my year. urgh what do i mean what i say it's not MY year, i mean i know i don't own years but that would be cool if i could buy em. anyways, back to the point. when i say it's not my year, i mean that nothing interesting has been happening this year. you know all those miracle crap, i don't even know why i still live by them. but that's alright, i still have enough of my coolness for everyone. *winks



i did one of those "Are you a dork, nerd or a geek?!" quiz thing on facebook, yeah when i don't have anything else to do. facebook is my homie. anyways, so i did this quiz and it asked me some of the most disturbing questions like "WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE TO DO MOT" and they give answers you can pick out and all of em seemed to be like "I LOVE STUDYING." "STUDYING IS COOL" "I STUDY FOR MY FUTURE" and i'm just there trying to look for the "none of the above" button and finding a way to skip that question. well, i did have to pick one of em. and i'm not gonna tell you which. well overall, i got NERD. i know i'm a nerd, i don't facebook to tell me. i guess alot of people found that interesting and liked it. you liked that you son of a bitch? lol you guys are backstabbers.

twitter

starting to get the hang of twitter. but you know you're just like a click away to update your status, and you can only do that on twitter so yeah i think i update it too often. here's my twitter www.twitter.com/fikasuhaimi follow me *winks

inspired

i found out about this whole iwrotethisforyou blog thing. heard about it before, thought it was just another cliche blog. but today i seemed to ran out of websites to check out so i checked that blog out and read every single post. oh man, they're brilliant. love the photography, amazingly beautifully done. and i love the fact that they're two different people from two different worlds. nice idea guys. and i've also checked out that post secret blogs. i seem to be so into post secrets nowadays, i dont know. at first post secrets seemed to be somewhat disturbing but i like it now. if you guys are interested, i'll put up the link at the end. hehe.

i cant believe i'm going to say this, but i'm turning anorexia. i cant eat. i never seem to be hungry nowadays. i'm making people worried and making myself worry, sorry guys. i know i'm at my most pathetic stage but i'm really trying to be myself again. sorry if im changing into a different person, alot of people have been warning me about that. sometimes i just don't realize what i'm doing. nadia told me today she hasn't seen me as sad as i was. just that second, it hit me. "what are you doing?"



http://postsecret.blogspot.com/
http://pleasefindthis.blogspot.com/

When Harry met Sally

I love that you get cold when it is 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle in your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.

Harder chaos

It's the second day since he left. Dang, i thought i was gonna feel much better than this. People say i'll get used to it and stuff. I dont want to get used to it, him not being around. Him not gonna be around like a paparazzi taking loads of photos. I miss that. I miss him always making me crack up like crazy. I'm having trouble breathing now, and im having trouble facing the fact that he's gone. He's never coming back to Moscow. Maybe i'm just hoping too much from him, yeah i know but that's the only thing that keeps me going. I cant stop hoping, if i do what other thing can i depend on? i know there's no such thing as a happy ending but i know i'll try to get as close as i can. I'll wait for him. Eventhough it'll take me 5 years or even 10. I dont care. Maybe i'm going to change my mind in the middle of those years but god knows when. And even maybe i'll still love him, Maybe i'll love him even more. Let's just see how it goes.

11july2009

i've never cried this hard before in my life, you made me do it. i acted strong infront of you, knowing if i cried it's just not worth it anymore. i'll miss catching you looking at me and smiling. i'll also sure miss how hard you'd make me laugh on and on. you're an adult now, time to face the real world. you need to spend time wisely and focus now. im just a girl you knew in the past. trust me, im gonna find you someday and tell you everything but that day wont come soon. i hope i'll still have time to do all that cause i hate regretting. maybe memories about you will wear off, but maybe it'll just stay there forever. i want it to stay. no matter how hard you made me cry, no matter how many pieces you made my heart broke into, i love you. maybe that's just for now, but who knows. i really love being around you. you make me feel for once cared for and needed. you have a life to live and i have mine, let's just pause this story and start a new one. maybe someday continue the old one.

Template baruuu

Not so pretty pon but still, cantikk. To blogspot, please put up more nice templates. NOT stupid plain ones but with corak corak and etc ok? ada paham? pegi carik translator.

BOSAAAN

Grr, bosannya harini! Baru bangun, dah bosan. Ish. Takde sape on Msn, Ym or either Fb. Korang ni kann. Fridays mesti bosaaaan. Dahlah bye.

Congratulations Doctors!

Congrats 6th years!
Banyak sgt nama lah kne tulis. You know who you are kan? :p Most of them are leaving tomorrow morning. Sobs. See you guys in Malaysia ok? :D

Last day of school. sobs.

It was saaad. I thought i'd be happy since school's like over man, for 2 months for gods sake. But heck no, i was crying :( i hugged everyone, i repeat everyone. even andy cho lol. No no, andy you've been a great shoulder to cry on.

Yesterday was quite fun, we played loads of weird games but it was funny in so many ways. Oh ohh, i won the best on relay. heheh, i swear i thought andyA was gonna get it, he was fast. no doubt. Aina got a medal for relays too, we were both like "what the f?" lol was smiling like mad at the front.

Sadly, Tolstoy won sports day. Grr, darn you tolstoy. But atleast chekov got second and beat pushkin. Since they've been giving us a hell of a hard time and plus, we hate them! lol Tolstoy should've won anyways, yogi was effin fast. But i still think chekov shoul've won. We kicked their asses on Tug of War real bad. But nahh, there's always a next time right chekov? :)

Oh oh. I miss muhammed so bad :( Grr, hate you holidays.

p/s The photo at the top was on sports day :D *dont mind the blue guy's ass.

Summer break just around the corner

Helloo readers, today i skipped school. not my fault. suddenly my mom had the urge to not wake me up. good news for me, i dont have to finish my art hw. hoyeahhh. well i feel kinda abit guilty of not coming today though cause i promised to give nina my bag and my camera for her to bring it to the space museum. and it's yogi's and aly's last day, and i didnt had the chance to hug them. oh well, that can wait for another 2 months ay? sorry yogi and aly. i woke up lastnight at like 3 or something and dad came in and told me one of my friends was on the phone, i was like wth now? and no suprise, kat. she doesnt have a life or something. i need my beauty sleep lol. am still tired of sports day on monday, my whole body aches. anyways, then kat said she doesnt feel like going to school today but she'll come on friday. i was like wth. you disturbed me from my sleep to tell me THIS. then hung up and just continued sleeping. next thing i know it was 9am lol, mom rock on.

Holidays are starting now though, tmorrow's the last day. i dont know why but im sad cause i dont want to spend my fuckin summer with my family. i wanna go to sardinia with kat and chiaraaaa. eventhough i dont know where the hell is sardinia but still. sasha is a bitch lol she didnt give me my purse back and she's in croatia or something. biatch, i want my purse back or i'll kill you with my bare hands.

Looks like muhammed left already. sports day was his last day. it was hard for me, i tried to talk to him but since im a dumbass and andy was stuck to him. i couldnt. since everyone knows now, i just dont really give a shit anymore. life's hard, deal with it.

I havent planned my summer vacation yet though. maybe going back to malaysia, but if not probably going to turkey. my mom is dying to go there. if we're not going anywhere. ill be in my room watching cartoons or movies while eating junk. aint that just a lovely holidays. since everyone's practically gone to holidays. god knows what they're doing right now.

Dad's getting a new car. yes. thank god. im tired of that his mercedez -.-' and like usual, he's planning to buy a volvo. ok fine, gotta admit the rims are awesome and it's a nice car but volvo dad? seriously? no hummer? lol no no jk.

I heard from someone. maria owned mr. o'connor. lol funny shit. so mr o' connor came into the geo class and then everyone's like wth it smells like onions. and then maria was like oh no, it's just mr. o'connor lol owned. but honestly, he does smell a truck full of onions just fell on him.

I wanna go back to malaysiaaa, so bad. anything to go back man. i miss everyone, especially my friends and family. ill come home guys, just wait!

wait. i just realized im home alone LOL ok gotta go and crash the house. lol BYE